Thread in which Yonlu posts some of his songs

[Rebs]

I couldn't have been farther from being worked up.

But thanks for pointing out the error of my ways.

[JLR]

I'm still listening to this stuff, and I recently got a PM on myspace from the mother of a girl who knew him (I think). She commented on how a record is going to be released for him.

[Guest Clementine Kruczynski]

I keep thinking, how could you ever miss someone that you've never met? I never knew about him, and I'm from Brazil. Now that I know, I wish so hard that we've met before it all.

And it was a long time ago

Does anyone could tell me about him? Don't know why, but I feel like just someone that just lost a FRIEND.

feels terrible.

[zxcvbnm]

The thread that never dies......

[Guest Clementine Kruczynski]

I wish more than anything that Yoñlu still alive.

[Rayn]

It's weird to think that he's getting his songs released as an album now. 3 years after he passed away

[bellafowl]

Yoñlu was a tallented boy and his death is really sad. Now we can just listen his songs. It is what he wanted.

[Unofficial Who]

I don't know if anyone here was responsible or if someone just randomly came across his work but Yonlu has made Metafilter today.

http://www.metafilter.com/92671/where-no-t...ivably-mediocre

16 year old Yonlu made music that ranged from bossa nova to 8-bit music from the sounds of desktop printers, never knowing that he would someday make the pages of Paste, eMusic, and Rolling Stone Brasil. He posted It's Not Another King Kong (later titled A Boy and the Tiger) to a gaming forum, where it was met with praise. More songs soon followed, which included English songs (I Know What It's Like, Humiliation), and also Portuguese songs (Estrela, Luana). Perhaps suffering from depression, Yonlu took his own life via carbon monoxide poisoning in 2006, just a few weeks before his 17th birthday. His parents only learnt of his songwriting from a CD he left behind for them, with a note telling them to listen to the CD "whenever they felt sad".

[Jab]

Most of his songs are also on Spotify; http://open.spotify.com/album/2njbPR05gvB7UCsrfqgfrG

[Guitar Heroine]

And it can be 'liked' via Facebook too. Get it out to the world!!

[msxgalaga]

FargalEx,

you were one of the people that always cared about Yonlu and his music, so if you say that I should let this thread die, my bad then... sure I will let the thread die and unsubcribe right now. I've edited/deleted my prior message. It was just my personal opinion, kind of a sum up of what I've read in those brazilian magazines I've mentioned that issued articles about Vinicius. Some of those were not translated to english, so I wanted to make it available for people who don't speak portuguese, but you will most certainly find the brazilian Rolling Stone article about Yonlu translated to english on websites. My message wasn't based on obssessive research, it's commom knowledge on the boards in Brasil and social networks such as orkut what happened to Vinicius, problem is some kids glamourize his passing and want to do the same. I just wanted to let people aware of while he had his reasons, his problems, I don't think he would actually go through it if he didn't have so many "friends" on that newsgroup rooting for him to "catch the bus".

to Napoleon:

I did not mean to blame Yonlu's suicide on the internet. I've been online since early 1995 and I've never seen so many cyber crimes and suicides in Brazil and worldwide before. There is something wrong with those "support" forums. I still believe that anyone who's suicidal don't need even more encouragement, tips of how to die, be offended and be told to be "removed from the gene pool". That's all I'm saying. People who were in vinicius last moments online are still alive... using other nicknames, "helping" other people... if they were suicidal, they would be gone by now don't you think? Isn't this strange? so they teach others but are still enjoying life?

People here in rllmukforum seemed to care about Vinicius until the end as you may have read in this thread. If he just stick to this forum he would have changed his mind. Internet is not to blame, but it makes a huge difference where you going to post and who are replying your posts. Well, that's all. Vinicius will be missed and again, forgive my post, not everybody speaks english in Brazil... I've met people on orkut who wanted to post here but couldnt due language barrier, I'm lucky to be able to read Yonlu lyrics and posts, just wanted to express myself about this tragedy. Please forget I've ever been here, I don't want to be misunderstood. Will stick to the portuguese speaking boards. Moderator, you can delete my posts...

Take care everyone and sorry again

[TheSlugFormerlyKnownAsNap]

There were plenty of people who told him not to do it, so you can't really blame 'the internet' for it. It was his own choice and he went looking for the answers and methods himself.

Still a tragic story though.

[FargalEX]

Galaga..I agree on some points but your post reads as being the result of obsessive research. Please, just let it lie..

[Penitent]

Lots of people tried to stop him, myself included. He was determined, and very calm from what I remember. I tried to PM him, post in his thread, the only other thing I could do was to set up a blogger account, called "Don't Do It" so I could subscribe to his blog and send him a direct message.

He'd just made his mind up that it was going to happen and wanted to be sure he would succeed.

Yes, it's a tragedy for those that he left behind, but not for him. He made his choice, it was probably the only time in his life where he felt fully in control, that is some comfort to me.

[TheBlockBaby]

He was from my country. I saw his story and stayed very touched. But, man, his songs are very, very good. I'm sure if he were still alive, would have become a very successful singer.

RIP

[YorkeKidA]

I'll always remember you!

[rubberbandbitch]

:s

[Alberto27]

I will forever listen to Yoñlu 

Till the end of my days

[sucy]

I don't know how to feel...[actually how to react]  Actually i can't describe what I'm feeling. This is so close to me, but also so far away.

When I was 4 years old, in 2006, Yonlu was 16. Now, in 2018 I'm 16, and I just knew about his story this year.

I wish I had been able to 'join' him on this site, before it was too late, as it is now. 

If I was able to, I would say that I feel so thankful for ''he''. Was the first time, in this 16 years of my life, that a song, a music, and a person really reached me. And coincidentally, I start with music and stuff when I was really young too. But in some 'part' of my life, i gave up on it, because I had lost all my strength, even for the music. But after that I listened to his songs, I felt again, it inspired me.

And now, I'm so damn grateful. And in love with the musics. With the person he was...

I know how the world hurt in you. I feel the same.

I'm kind of glad that I got the chance of ''meet you'', unfortunately, not in the best circumstances, but your music made me feel things again. You really, REALLY, really touched me and reached me. In this world of trash you're a ''dádiva''.

And we both know where Erechim is...

Vinicius, I love you!

[Alberto27]

On 15/05/2018 at 20:51, sucy said:

I don't know how to feel...[actually how to react]  Actually i can't describe what I'm feeling. This is so close to me, but also so far away.

When I was 4 years old, in 2006, Yonlu was 16. Now, in 2018 I'm 16, and I just knew about his story this year.

I wish I had been able to 'join' him on this site, before it was too late, as it is now. 

If I was able to, I would say that I feel so thankful for ''he''. Was the first time, in this 16 years of my life, that a song, a music, and a person really reached me. And coincidentally, I start with music and stuff when I was really young too. But in some 'part' of my life, i gave up on it, because I had lost all my strength, even for the music. But after that I listened to his songs, I felt again, it inspired me.

And now, I'm so damn grateful. And in love with the musics. With the person he was...

I know how the world hurt in you. I feel the same.

I'm kind of glad that I got the chance of ''meet you'', unfortunately, not in the best circumstances, but your music made me feel things again. You really, REALLY, really touched me and reached me. In this world of trash you're a ''dádiva''.

And we both know where Erechim is...

Vinicius, I love you!

Who's Erechim?

[sucy]

3 hours ago, Alberto27 said:

Who's Erechim?

it's not a person. it's a city in Brazil. a city on the state of Rio Grande do Sul, and the capital of this state is Porto Alegre, where Yonlu lived.(I just know about it because I'm brazilian).

 but on the music "Luana/mecânica celeste aplicada" he said something about Erechim.

"e eu aposto que ele nem sabe onde fica Erechim", and the meaning it's like "I bet that he doesn't even know where Erechim is"

the problem here is to know who is the "he" Yonlu is talking about. but with the context and interpretation you can know it. I'm not gonna try to explain here because I'm not absolutely sure, but almost. if u want me to talk about it, just send me a message here! we can discuss about it!

[Alberto27]

@sucy probably the 'he' is talking about is the teacher of 'mecanica celeste aplicada' 

[drommende]

eterno yoñlu...

[denna]

dear yoñlu, 

 

i was only three yo when you decided that this world was too heavy for u. now, im almost sixteen, and i feel like i don't belong anywhere. i feel so many things, things that makes me want to scratch my skin and scream. 

but your music helps me a lot. when i got to know what happened to you, two years ago, i felt like a part of me i didn't know died and then was reborn. i felt like i had lost a friend, vini. i dreamt of you so many times. i always try to save you but i can't and then i die too. i miss you and we've never met.

and i feel so sorry. im so sorry because im sure im gonna end myself. soon. 

wish i could have hugged you, listened to you and your demons, be there for you.

i just hope you're in peace now.

i love you.

thank you for being the most beautiful thing i see and hear every single day.

Quote

"caminhando e cantando e seguindo a canção".

all love,

denna.

p.s.: there's a movie about you. i don't know what else to say. it's pretty great, tho. see ya, perhaps.

 

12.02.2019

 

 

[choddo]

@denna are you in Brazil? I think you can call 141 to talk to someone. You sound like you could use a bit of help.

[denna]

@choddo ye im brazilian.. 

 

thank u 

[andromeda0216]

@dennahey, dear. 

well, I'm kinda happy for reading something that looks like that I was who write it, bc I cannot say how much I understand you, denna. I'm seventeen right now and just like you i felt exactly the same thing when I think about yonlu and search/listen to his stuff. idk, I felt like a lost a friend too; someone that, somehow that idk how to explain,  kinda understand (or understood (?)) me in this world full of pain and melancholy and demons in your head that does not stop growing and getting more and more stronger every day. 

 

anyway, I'm kinda sad too, if you let me be honest;; I really don't like seen people suffering for this kinda of demons that, as you (and vinicius) know I guess, just wanna us to be dead and fast. and if you let me again, please receive this weird-virtual-hug-from-a-brazilian-girl-who-loves-yonlu-more-than-probably-her-shit-life  

 

all love, katerine. 

[denna]

1 hour ago, andromeda0216 said:

@dennahey, dear. 

well, I'm kinda happy for reading something that looks like that I was who write it, bc I cannot say how much I understand you, denna. I'm seventeen right now and just like you i felt exactly the same thing when I think about yonlu and search/listen to his stuff. idk, I felt like a lost a friend too; someone that, somehow that idk how to explain,  kinda understand (or understood (?)) me in this world full of pain and melancholy and demons in your head that does not stop growing and getting more and more stronger every day. 

 

anyway, I'm kinda sad too, if you let me be honest;; I really don't like seen people suffering for this kinda of demons that, as you (and vinicius) know I guess, just wanna us to be dead and fast. and if you let me again, please receive this weird-virtual-hug-from-a-brazilian-girl-who-loves-yonlu-more-than-probably-her-shit-life  

 

all love, katerine. 

hey, katerine

 

thank u for reading my emotional "letter" and taking a bit of your time to write me c:

it really warms my heart

 

i guess we all would like to save him..

 

the melancholy is really touchable

 

well, receive this weird-virtual-hug back <333

 

and, please, feel free to send me a message if u feel like wanting to talk to someone

wish for you all the good energies this universe can offers ^^

 

all love,

me

 

 

[wanderai]

Sendo isso estranho ou não, Yoñlu, eu de certa forma só estou aqui porque você esteve um dia. Foi a pouquíssimo tempo que fiquei sabendo de você e do seu suicídio, mas ainda sim senti algo muito forte dentro de mim, sinto uma dor muito grande dentro de mim quando paro para pensar no que houve com você. Eu estou hoje aqui no fórum, hoje eu escrevo, hoje toco, hoje vivo, você não, e é algo tão fora da nossa realidade que nem mesmo podemos imaginar a sensação que é estar morto, e isso dói muito dentro de mim, pensar que hoje vivo, e você não.

Lamento muito por existirem pessoas que te influenciaram daquele jeito, mas o que faz com passamos a agir dessa forma é um mistério, a psique humana é um mistério, seu suicídio é um mistério. Talvez o que fizeram com você foi algum tipo de laranja mecânica, talvez eram pessoas tão sequeladas quanto você, que descontam a frustração e a dor de consciência nos outros.

Quando olho para suas fotos, sinto melancolia e me deprimo, choro, mesmo nunca o tendo realmente conhecido e ter conhecido seu trabalho e sua história a pouco tempo. É como se uma pequena parte que faz parte de mim morra também quando escuto suas músicas, ou leio seus poemas, mas essa parte que morre renasce como uma fênix.

Yoñlu, você hoje vive na mente e nos corações de muitas pessoas ao redor do Brasil e mundo, inspirando milhares de pessoas por aí, inspirando a mim. Yoñlu é fantástico.

[wanderai]

On 12/02/2019 at 19:36, denna said:

dear yoñlu, 

 

i was only three yo when you decided that this world was too heavy for u. now, im almost sixteen, and i feel like i don't belong anywhere. i feel so many things, things that makes me want to scratch my skin and scream. 

but your music helps me a lot. when i got to know what happened to you, two years ago, i felt like a part of me i didn't know died and then was reborn. i felt like i had lost a friend, vini. i dreamt of you so many times. i always try to save you but i can't and then i die too. i miss you and we've never met.

and i feel so sorry. im so sorry because im sure im gonna end myself. soon. 

wish i could have hugged you, listened to you and your demons, be there for you.

i just hope you're in peace now.

i love you.

thank you for being the most beautiful thing i see and hear every single day.

all love,

denna.

p.s.: there's a movie about you. i don't know what else to say. it's pretty great, tho. see ya, perhaps.

 

12.02.2019

 

 

I feel the same, it feels kind weird, doesn't it? I had a dream with him last week, i was talking to his spirit, i don't remember what we talked about in the dream, but i felt it so much.

It's weird, i kinda ''miss him'', and being the same age he were when he died is more touching, i don't know.